Not What I Was Expecting

That is exactly what I was thinking this morning. Any day that you start the morning with a crisis management meeting for a student out of control is not a good one. I have one student who has been in a downward spiral all year long. He has no self control, acts inappropriately all day, gets in fights, uses racial slurs with minority students, throws temper tantrums in the classroom and is simply at best defiant to the extreme. He's such a train wreck that I dubbed him the anti-christ the first week he was in my class.

Ironically, I was supposed to be his miracle worker, his redeemer, his one last shot to get his act together and pass the 8th grade. It's not that I haven't tried. I have expended more energy on this kid than I have on any other my entire career. But it gets to the point where I can't even conduct class without him spewing venom on me because he can't follow even the simplest of classroom rules.

So here I sit in a meeting telling the crisis team what a complete nightmare the past 12 weeks with this kid has been, that I don't have the skills to deal with this kid who is obviously disturbed beyond any resources I have to draw upon. My voice does not go unheard and his mother tells me she realizes he more messed up than any
of us in the room could imagine.

The sad thing about this situation is that this isn't just a kid who is obnoxious, the monster that he is was not inherited but rather created. He has sustained physical abuse that would make even the most skeptical observer cringe. He's also been told what a sack of shit he is all his life. Yeah nice environment to be brought up in I know. He's been removed from that environment for a couple of years now, but the damage was done a long time ago. I have empathy for him but some days it is just hard to be sympathetic when he's screaming at me "you fucking bitch, I can do what ever I want" I digress.

So we come up with a plan of action for this kid, and basically he's removed from school for the rest of the school year. Mom was taking him that morning out of school and directly to the Emergency Room and putting him under a psych hold for as long as legally possible. Finally he is going to get the intensive psychiatric help he needs. For his sake it's the best thing for him, and honestly I think it's his only hope.

But what I wasn't expecting was for him to stop by my room on his way out of the building. I wasn't expecting him to thank me for letting him be in my class. I wasn't expecting him to actually listen to me when I told him that I wasn't doing this because I hated him. That if I didn't care I wouldn't have called for the meeting. I wasn't expecting him to tell me he would miss me, that he would miss seeing me everyday, miss me helping him feel like he wasn't the loser everyone told him he was every day of his life. I wasn't expecting to see the tears in his eyes, the sincerity in his voice. I wasn't expecting the lump in my throat. The crack in my voice....I wasn't expecting to spend my lunch hour unabashedly balling my eyes out while sitting in my car. No this was not what I was expecting today.

FML Monday's

So the air conditioner repair man came to my house on Saturday and said my unit was toast. Now I have to come up with two grand to replace the fucker...Fuck My Life!

You are welcome to add your own FML if you'd like, misery loves company.

No good title... expect it sucks to be me

Yesterday I went to lay my phone on the island in my kitchen and unfortunately missed the mark and it fell on the floor. Not a big deal except it landed face down which of course caused it to practically implode as it sent the back cover flying off, and simultaneously causing the battery to dislodge.

So I pick up the phone, shove the battery back into it, and go to retrieve the back cover. Only problem is it's no where to be found. I mean there really wasn't that many places for it to go, where could it possibly be hiding? I checked under the pantry door and refrigerator thinking maybe it slid under there, no luck. I even opened all the drawers with in a 5 foot radius thinking maybe it got flung into there, Nope. Searched the entire floor under the table, around all the cabinet floor
boards still no luck.

Look I am no physics major but there is only so far that thing could have projectiled and landed.. so where the fuck is it people???????????????

So now if my phone wasn't totally jacked up as it with all the keys on the pad cracked or completely gouged, now I really look like a complete ghetto bitch with a phone that has scotch tape all over it in an attempt to keep the battery in place! Damn I'm a complete loser. Sucks to be me.

Holy Fuck some shithead just pulled the damn fire alarm outside my classroom, scared the living shit out of me! And don't give me crap about blogging on the job it's my planning time at least I am doing something productive!

Joke of the Day

Found this in my shout box yesterday from my web nemesis

timethief said:
I know you don't like me but I do like your new blog.

April 13th 2009 - Private

Only to be followed up by this:

timethief said:
Man that's exactly how I feel about you too. I don't know you and I don't like your behavior or your weekend language on the forum either but your blog is okay ... so blog on!

April 14th 2009 - Private


Ok did she not see the reference I made about forking her in the eyball in my last post...........thanks for the FUCKING laugh timethief, yeah I used Weekend words biatchhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hoppy Easter

Oh and if you're offended by my Happy Easter comment get over it,,,,not like I stabbed you in the eye with a fork! Muahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
My regulars will know what I mean by that

You want me to do what?

I was listening to the radio yesterday and once again I’m reminded how my Alma Mater Eastern Michigan is slowly becoming a jacked up example of a model University.

It seems my esteemed Alma Mater recently dismissed a student from a counseling program for her refusal to affirm a client’s homosexual behavior prior to a counseling session. She was then told the only way she could stay in the program was to go through a “remediation” process to change her beliefs as they relate to counseling homosexual relationships. Tit for Tat she refuses and they hold her degree as hostage. Long story short she’s suing the University.

Now before anyone gets their panties in a bunch ...I’m indifferent to homosexuality, who am I to judge…..what someone does in their own personal life is their own biz. Furthermore before you make assumptions and think she’s just some Jesus freak or something, there’s no mention in the article about this being the prompting for the refusal to cooperate on the student’s part. Yes the organization that has offered to help her are from the religious right…but that’s just good organizing on their part. Seriously why wouldn’t they jump all over this… it’s manna from heaven in helping promote their cause.

But whether or not her beliefs are based on religious influences doesn’t matter, and if you can’t see that then you are totally missing the point here. The act of believing that homosexual behavior is something that must be affirmed is not a stipulation for her degree requirement or for her to obtain licensing from the State.

I really don’t think that anyone’s opinion about the issue of homosexuality is even relevant in this situation, because I think it goes deeper than just that.
EMU is basically still imposing the same practices that drove me to personally drop out my Master’s Program half way through. They are essentially trying to indoctrinate students to their form of political correctness. I left because I felt that the University was becoming radical in trying to impose their own social morals on me without consideration for my constitutional rights of liberty and free speech.

Why does the constitutional rights to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness only apply to some and not everyone….Why is it that some Liberals think they are the only ones that can play the constitution card…

So does the University really have a non discrimination policy? Obviously not because anybody can see she was clearly discriminated for her personal choice and refusal to remediate her thinking to align with the supposedly politically correct policy of the University. Ok rant done what do you think?

Less Power to the Children

I have thought for sometime now that we have just empowered kids too much. I know it all started as a do good thing but it's gotten out of control really. Yes we want for our kids to be empowered to stand up to child molesters and abusive authority figures, or the bully down the block. These are all inherently good things to strive for, however somewhere along the way the children have warped those good intentions as a licence to do and say what ever they want to whom ever they want.

Case in point......yesterday in my classroom one of my students felt empowered to vocalize his feeling regardless of their inappropriateness. After he stated his dislike of a new student by announcing that he "hates that little mother fucker" I sternly reminded him to keep his opinions and colorful vocabulary to himself. Now this kid typically responds to a warning and then shapes it up, and I usually don't have to write him up on school violations, but yesterday he was on a roll.

He throughout the next 2 hours to spew his dislike of another teacher by saying he wished she'd die and that she needs to take the stick out of her ass. Why does he say it? Because he can, and feels entitled to....because according to him he feels like "he's living in hell, and "I" am the gate keeper.

Needless to say his day became a real living hell as I wrote him up on a discipline and told the Principal what he said word for word. Hopefully he will think twice about how he can according to his own admittance, say whatever he wants because he has "freedom of speech, and this is a free country". Yeah well If I followed your advice sweetie, I would of told you to quit acting like a jack ass and shut the hell up! Ok rant over, I need to sharpen my horns.